I pray the Lord helps me not to let my heart harden. I only want what you want for me. I only want to focus on that. Help me restore order within myself and within my home. My heart is not growing sick from hope deferred. I am not cursed due to my past mistakes. I am not cursed due to the sins of my ancestors. I put the cross of the Lord between their sins and my birth. It ends with me. Thankful that He sees the depths of my heart and STILL loves me. Thankful that everytime the enemy tries to shut me up, I keep on talking. Thankful that I'm maturing enough to know when I'm being attacked (and have the strength and courage to go to war) and know when I just need to get it together lol (it's me oh Lord lol). Thankful that I can take the advice that's for me and leave the rest. I renounce every ungodly soul tie even the ones that weren't created through sex. I come out of agreement with any vows and contracts I made in the past that attached me to things and people not aligned with my destiny. I turn my back on and tear down any idols I've made whether money, marriage, my ego, my children, success, etc. I'm baby stepping this with the Lord and I cast my cares onto Him. Even if He has to carry me through this, I'm OK because I can't afford to lose. There's too much to be done to give up. Too much to be done to be disobedient. Too much to be done to go back on the run. I have the ability to see this through because I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I have the authority to speak to my storms and tell them to cease because greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world. I have the specific strategy to recover all and nothing outside of what God says matters. God is stretching my capacity and building my endurance. My hope is built on the Lord and nothing else. My mind is renewed and refocused on Him. Mine eyes look to the hills because I KNOW my help is coming from him. I speak life over myself, my family and friends. I embrace my process with joy because I know I'll be changed for the better. I am more than a conqueror. I shall subdue. I shall pursue my dreams and purpose. I will not run from my calling. I shall run towards my fears, facing them head on, without backing down; standing in my truth and celebrating my triumph because I've already won. I have a NOW praise because I've already WON! I see myself already finished, already on the other side of this. And WHEN I get there, all I'll do is thank God because he didn't leg me fall and #Ididntquit
Someone needed to read this moment of transparency. We all fall short. Give the same grace you seek.