Let's talk about stalling labor. No, I'm not talking about being in the delivery room of the hospital and screaming about being in too much pain to push anymore; so you decide to tell the doctors that you aren't going to push any longer. Or was that just me? With my first child I was a teen mom and I pushed about 3 times before I decided that I was going to put my legs down and go home. The doctors said "you can't, we can see her head!" That was when I learned that you can't go back once you're in the active stages of labor lol.
But seriously, I'm talking about being pregnant with purpose and the pain that you feel, just before birth, being so painful that you want to give up on pushing. Just like with natural labor, you can't stall forever. Had I not just gone through the difficulty of my physical labor 2 months ago, and survived and rejoiced, I might have forgotten the feelings of joy and happiness that come along with it once it is over.
That would have caused me to abort my purpose process yet again. But because I am so close to giving birth I have to push through the pain. The pain of trials and tribulations hitting left and right. The pain of feeling as if one thing after another is slamming you. The pain of feeling as if you're drowning under the weight of it all.
But that's just it. It was all about my feelings. And even though my feelings were valid, they could not be relied upon for proper judgment. Feelings are fickle and even though they are a part of daily life, we should not allow ourselves to be controlled by them.
The reality is, all of those trials and hardships helped to build my character. They helped to make me stronger, keep me focused and disciplined. They pushed me to go harder. Instead of retreating like I used to do, I pressed in. I didn't let up because I was too tired of the same alternative.
My ex leaving me 9 months ago was the implantation pain of the baby that was to be birthed this month (even though I was about 2 months pregnant with a natural baby). I needed to carry this to term as well. If I didn't push through this process, and become who I'm destined to become, what happens? I would end up on the street, without my children who give me life and furthermore the people who are assigned to me and to hear God through my voice could be held up. If I don't push through, I'll still be stuck doing the same ineffective things, bound by the same oppressors, losing left and right. I REFUSE to let that be my story when God wants to write me a new one.
A lot of us are in active labor this month and might be birthing ministries, businesses, projects, etc. and fear of the pain has caused you to try to stall labor. You know it has to come out but you're stalling. Don't feel bad, God is still going to bring beauty from it in the end of the process; you'll be relieved from the pain.
Many of you are complacent with where you are in life. You feel the tugging in your spirit that's calling you higher but you're too afraid to leave your comfort zone behind. I know I was there not too long ago. Enough is enough though. Make your mind up that you will stay the course not matter what. That you won't shrink back and give up. Tell hell "No, I'm going to finish this." There is no turning back.
Like I said, when the baby is about to come out, you can't say "I'll just wait and try again tomorrow or next month" So stop doing that with your destiny! Why in the world would I, or you, dare to give up when we're already in active labor? Even now, I'm writing this post during my 15 and 30 minute breaks at work because it has to get done. What do you have to do to GET IT DONE? Stop procrastinating and do it. I know it's easier said than done but if the former queen of procrastination can do it, why not you? lol.
You better grunt, scream, breathe, holler, punch, kick whatever it is that you do while in labor, but as I said when I was pushing 2 months ago "get her (your destiny) out!!!!!
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